Poem: Dear God

Dear God,

I know it has been a while since we've spoken, I was just wondering why we are so broken?

They say I am going against your plan because I am holding my boyfriend's hand in a church

Where they pray to a YOU they cannot see in ME.

But, you don't make mistakes-right?

Glistening sunsets are beautiful just like the stars that turn into bombs over the heads of children,

Praying for just one more tomorrow,

But tomorrow never comes for the bum with his outstretched hand, holding his outstretched heart, waiting for it to be filled with your grace..

The face looking back at me from the mirror is a sinner

God...

If I am created in your image, then why am I so broken?

Smoking ciggaretes and drinking moonshine to get closer to heaven,

While a man robs a 7-11 to feed his children... Hungry for a life worth living..

The man that beats his wife because he cant see the beautiful sunrise of your grace in that beaten and battered face crying tears of love for a man she still sees as her saviour

God, why are we so broken?

The token machine is out of tokens, and this ride is getting close to it's finale

the beginning of my omega,

the Alphabet spelling diseases..

robbing lives from being lived.. broken dreams wrapped in a quilt that cannot keep us warm..

Burning though our veins like heroin and hate..

God, reach into my soul.. pull out my pain.. turn my face up to the rain.. and baptize me whole again.. I want to be whole again..

I reach in my pocket pull out one last token, and keep riding..

Thats all we can really do...

See the beauty in me... and I'll say keep your chin up... to the god.. in you..

Peace Poem.. and codependancy

When you are living in codependancy... It is really hard to find peace. It becomes this game of trying to save someone else while tring to keep your head above water at the same time, and sometimes it all gets blurry and we forget to heal our own hearts... here is a poem from my heart to yours....

Peaks

If peace were a mountain, I would climb to the top and hurl my body from its peak just so that I could feel the wind brushing itself against my wings as I learn to fly for the first time.
I’ve learned the hard way that the poems of life don’t always rhyme,
sometimes they are broken
like memories lost in empty pill bottles..
I still remember kissing God’s breath into your lungs, crying a river of broken glass, and walking across it to find your lifeless body waiting for me when I came home from work…
you look for peace in the shadow of little white Gods..
a prescription for a life worth living never filled, still tucked away in your pocket.
I look for peace in mountain peaks…
If I could just remember how to fly…

Poems, poems, poems... Help me write!!!

In order to get really good at what we do, we must practice... we must practice.. and did I mention practice. So here is what I want from you: Topics

You all are my muses, my loves, and beautiful souls. This will be a fun challenge. What I want you to do is to give me topics to write about, and I'll draft a poem based on whatever topic you give me. I am going to do a goal of one poem a day, starting tomorrow all the way until the Arkansas Grand National Slam.

Examples:

Love, hope, death of a loved one, cup of coffee, rainbows, spiders... etc... I'll create poem based on the them you give, and if it comes out well, I'll do a youtube performance of the poem topic you gave... Lots of fun, and it helps us to become interactive in our creative process.

Much love to you all...

Mike

Amazing Picture.

http://www.art4god.com/html/?go=calvary&page=5

Sunshine- A poem of codependancy

Living with someone that has an addiction, creates addiction in our own lives. Codependency is damaging to both, and it is my hope that through my own story, people will learn to love themselves, and as we heal.. those around us will heal. So, to you, I bear my soul.. good and bad.

xoxo

Mike


You are my sunshine
my only sunshine..
you make me happy...
when skies are gray...

And those gray skies were wrapped in your goodbyes...
I thought we'd be together forever.
You were my light, and now it is dark, yet the darkness was always there
We tried to love one another to the point of killing one another, and hope can only do CPR on the heart so many times
before it gives us away to the life we've chosen to live. And there is nothing i wouldnt give to see you happy.
I would rip every star from the sky if it would give you enough light to see your way home,
I would pull every cloud from God's beard so that I could make a pillow soft enough for you to dream away the nightmares of our reality,
but for some fucking reason, I cant pull the needle out of your arm long enough for you to love me.
I would slit my wrists a thousand times to bleed a river of love to find you, set sail on my pain.. the rain beating my face.. like the beating of your heart
against my ear each night as we would fall asleep... yes, I am here, yes, I am here... and now, I fear I've lost you. I gave you everything and when you left you took nothing.
you left me sitting under my own dark rainbow,
wrapping myself in memories to keep me warm at night, wondering if you had it in you to keep up the fight
I tried to save you by killing myself,
giving away our love to others,
wrapping myself un named lovers, looking for that high
because you were my addiction... my poison.. my ocean of pain, and my boat was sinking
lost in the rain, beating down on me like a storm, how many guys do I have to fuck to pull the needle out of your arm,
come home, I miss you, I'd kiss away your pain and take it into my own heart,
just so that I could rip it apart, so that we can start at, I love you..I still love you
The day you went away, my soul tore itself in two, so that in those moments when you are cold,
in those moments where you could not see tomorrow, I could still hold you for one more day...

You'll never know dear, how much I love you..
Please dont take my sunshine away..

Learning to love again

The toughest thing about relationships are the endings. We attach so much to that moment, sometimes even before we get there. Sometimes they last years, sometimes only mere moments. We need to learn to love, and to love in a way where we love our partners through our love for ourselves. When we only give love to them, and are willing to sacrifice everything for that one person.. when they leave, what do you have left? A whole bunch of NOTHING! Give of yourself freely, but feed yourself first, and share in the meal with your partner. I've seen so many people come to me in a state of complete upheaval due to the loss of a partner, and in some cases the relationship was extremely toxic. We often times choose to settle into a place of despair rather than seeing the world through a different set of eyes. If someone is purposely hurting you, or demeaning you, or physically causing you pain.. that is not love. The more you take, the more guilt and blame usually build up as a result. This is why it is so important to first have a great relationship with yourself. Love yourself unconditionally. Learn to forgive yourself for all that stuff you hide deep within your heart. Learn to connect to the self through meditation, writing, and just sharing with others.

I'm going to post some specific meditations for letting go in video form which will make it easy for you to follow along.

Much love to you all,

Mike

The soul....

We all have one of the beautiful diamonds. Sometimes we do not take a long enough look inside to really make contact with beautiful being that is intertwined with every fabric of our being. Like a beautiful tapestry it helps to create what is right in front of us. We are all creators, so in essence we are all God. Each day we create memories, we start wars, we love, we help those in need, we condemn and offer salvation. Sometime though, we do so much of the negative, that we lose sight of the positive. The law of attraction states that we draw unto us what we give the most attention to. So, if we strive to create drama and chaos in the lives of others, then that is what we can also expect in this time of forward progress. The soul really wants us to learn to experience love, harmony, and peace. We are one, and as one we create a universal emotion that is felt by all on a very deep level. So, to reflect back to the world what it really needs, we need to bring moments of peace, joy, and love into our lives. Each and everyday we are giving opportunities to help connect not only ourselves to a higher place of being, we have the opportunity to help others. Sometimes it only takes a smile... what do you lose by giving a smile away?

Learn to love, and love unconditionally. When you can love others without condition, you learn to love yourself in the same fashion. Let the soul sing... and sing along... its beautiful.

Flower

I remember planting my first rose bush in my back yard... it never bloomed until I left for bootcamp... much like my soul the little flower would grow, it would wilt, and it would die... but, it would grow again... My mother would send me pictures of the flower in bloom, and I would send her pictures of me.. blooming in my own garden... I look back and I see all the weeds that I planted in my little garden, but have always been thankful my soul gave me some really sharp thorns to keep me safe... we die a thousand times from birth to death, but many of us never really learn to blossom. We never learn to feel the sun against the petals of our cheeks, we never take the time to stretch our little limbs up to enjoy each moment, each rainstorm, each... moment. Then the moment is gone, it wilts away, we die, and we grow again. In life, I guess we never take the time to really enjoy each moment. We only look to the end, and never taste the love that is right in front of us. Remember, pluck yoursleves from the bush of your life, and place yourself as the center of the table and say--You are beautiful... enjoy this life, each moment, each breath, each rainstorm, and wrap yourself in those memories. Let the soul blossom...

xoxo
Mike